Doubting yourself is the worst and best thing you can do
I’ve been doubting myself since I can remember.
I doubt myself when it comes to the skills I have.
I doubt myself when it comes to my ability to do business.
I doubt myself when it comes to my ability to create content.
The list can keep going.
For a very long time I’ve been trying to get rid of that self-doubt, and I succeeded in some way.
If not for that, I would not be publishing this article on this website.
I wouldn’t even attempt to write it.
So I can say I don’t doubt myself as much as I did when I was younger.
But I never wanted to stop that self-doubt completely, and to become an over-confident person.
Even the “confident” status seems a bit “too much” for me.
Self-doubt can be hard, because it stops you from doing so many things.
It also generates a lot of stress for yourself, and a lot of frustration, especially nowadays when you can use the internet to compare yourself to others really easily.
Working on something, an article, a drawing, a 3D model, whatever, and then seeing the same type of project already made, in a much better way, by someone way better than you, can shatter your confidence, even the little one that you had.
But self-doubt isn’t all bad.
At least for me, it’s what kept me on edge about learning new things.
It’s what made me get used to the idea (and even embrace it) that I know very little, and that even the things I know might be wrong.
It’s what made me become obsessed with improving and becoming better, with learning and not acting as if I knew everything there is to know.
It’s what gave me the courage to say “I don’t know” whenever I was asked about a topic I didn’t fully understand.
The most annoying thing a person can do, in my opinion, is to be confident in his or her knowledge, and ignorant towards everything that contradicts it.
The same can apply to learning new things — being ignorant, and believing that what you know, and what you can do right now, is more than you need, is something I simply cannot comprehend.
I can’t be satisfied with knowing one thing, I can’t be satisfied with being sure of what I know, and I surely can’t be satisfied with never learning anything new.
Self doubt can be extremely annoying, frustrating, and unhealthy, especially if you let it.
But it can also make you aware of the fact that what you know, and what you can do right now, isn’t enough.
It’s your choice if you want to use that as a reason to be even more frustrated, or as a motivator to learn more.
However, if not for that self-doubt that I felt and still feel every time I open my mouth, or every time I start working on something, I definitely wouldn’t know the things I know right now, and I would definitely not be able to do the things I can do.